Living With Regret

Looking forward instead of backwards.

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My personal regrets

I really wish I could have graduated university. The first time, or the second. I wish I had been strong enough to see the course through. Both times I had some serious issues going on outside of the course and both times I admitted defeat and threw in the towel… telling myself that my mental health and general wellbeing were more important than any degree.

I think I would have enjoyed teaching English – at least most of the time.

It’s so easy to think about what was not and not what is.

Achievements

I have published five books of my own in the last 4 years and I have three more in the works. I have also published four other authors and helped to make their dreams come true. I have achieved every single writing goal I had set myself before I was published and many after the fact. I have earned enough from my writing to purchase a MacBook and pay a few bills. I have also sold books in around 10 different countries and I am sometimes recognised out on the street due to school visits and book signings.

And yet, I’m not happy!

I wonder what that says about me as a person, as a creative being?

Final Word

I am going to choose to look at the positive and try to think of ways to remind myself how far I have come. I’m thinking something like calendar reminders of things like book publishing anniversaries.

Children/YA author and literacy teacher. I write articles about writing, teaching, fatherhood, and gender/racial equality among other things!

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